when will yous be telling the truth ?
its till the last min , ure still lieing.
i dunnoe how to trust anyone anymore.
yous told me to believe in yous , but how yous expect me to believe.
yous dun even gave me the confident to make me believe .
i guess. i dint noe tht yous well in the 1st place.
we shouldn had started at 1st .
my heart really hurts .
ure still lieing to me till the last min ytd.
maybe . im right.
i've made the right choice.
all the best to yous bahs.

i should be giving up .
ure on my mind , i couldn concentrade on things. im crying .
yet yous dint noe .
all i wanted was ure honesty . isit so diff ?
i guess. frm the start , i noe nth about yous.


its forever gone now ):
hais ):
thanks baobehs , bestie , grace laogong , pris laogong , wifey , mandy darlin and kailin xingan (:
for cheering me on , noeing thats im being love by ure (:
i still can let everything down .
cried in chinese class todays. scolding teacher. hais ><
i kept on throwing my tantrum in sku today .
kept on showing black face im sorry .

boy , ure still in my mind.
im still thinking bout all the past fun we had.
i made this chioce. im sorry .
my last good bye for yous i guess,
but we're still frens.
i couldn let everything go yets.
i was hoping for ure reply , telling me yous would change for me .
but it wasn , im really disappointed.
yous wanted me to understand , wad about me ,
who would understand me .
i guess, yous could find someone better dhens me.
who could understand yous much better.
boy , stay happy.
study hard for ure exams , dun retain anymore.
treat mummy better , let her be happy.
stay happy (:
hope yous find someone better (:
guess , its gonna be my last tym calling yous
baby ):

time couldn go back .
1 mth + , i noe it wont come back anymore.
i cried , yea . im sad . but i guess. i should continue .
im really stress up now. with all this things bugging me,
family , frens and exams .
i really couldn cope anymore.
nobody seems to understand fully.
but i guess, im still glad , ppl are with me (: thanks guys (:
let me be , im gonna be alrite .
but its nt gonna be so fast .
i couldn go on strong anymore. i'll try .
yet its gonna be hard.
fake smiles , real tears . when will the laughter be coming back .
hais ><


i had been puting on a brave front in front of everyone .
i been cheering myself up.
yet , guess it dosen really help anymore.
i couldn smile lyk i ccould do .
im breaking down . im crying now. who's dere for me now.
i really couldn take it anymore.
i had hiding in a corner and cry .
no body seems to understand. im really tired i guess.
i really nided a break frm everything.


had fun today (: made new frens. met up with munkie , xiao en , le and army boy (:
super craps.
had fun after exam . slack ard with deyao korkor they all (:
but guess, my mood was totally ruin -.-

im giving up .
i dun feel lyk doing anything anymore. i seems to be useless gal in anywhr .
i cldn even keep my promise to ppl .
i cldn even do a simple thing of studying good.
im just out to make other ppl dulan . making other ppl giving up on me.
im useless, im hopeless.
i dun worth all of your care anymore.
dun tell me ure does care. it dosen help anymore. it does help in the past .
with all of ure telling me ure does care.
it dosen help anymore now. i've really given up all hopes.
i dun deserve anything now. just let me be lyk this can .
dun tell me ure will be dere for me anymore.
cos no bodys just dere during my darkness moment .
i hid myself in a corner and cry , till my eyes went swollen .
yet no ones dere. to console me , lending me the shoulder.
everyone has been very busy with their work now .
nobody has the tym to care for me now i guess.
everybody has their own ppl now .
they dun have tht tym for me anymore.
i really dun want to add to their burdens anymore.
guess , is the best i just kept everything with me .

boy , as tym went by. we began to drift.
maybe the problem is nt with yous. maybe is with me.
maybe is all my fault.
i wanted yous to be the most impt person in my life.
whenever i have things yous will be the 1st one i could find.
even happy or sad.
budden it dosen seems tht way .
whenever i nided someone to talk to ,
ure always nt the 1st person i would find .
peers are asking me to give up on this relationship , its pointless to hold on .
i dint noe wad to do either .
at least , in the past , you msg me almost everyday .
yet , till now , nt a single msg frm yous,
i guess, im losing my feelings.
i dunnoe wad to do anymoree.
yous werent dere when i nided yous the most .
it still bothers me alot . yet , i guess, im really tired.
i just nided a break frm everything.



shall post about ytd (:
chinese exam was rather easy (: slept alot during paper one . slept abit for paper 2.
rush home to change and met up with baobehs. trained down adjunied .walk ard to find dems . bought bubble tea . saw kailin xingan 1st <3>< saw baby nxt . slack ard. smk (: kailin xingan was really cuteee (: iloveher :D hahas :D walk ard geylang . and they went to eat durian . siting dere sian-ing while watching all of dems eat . dhen went off to had lunch . i dint eat either. see dems eat . thanks kester mother for the drink (: went off. trained back yishun , cos baobehs is having tution . and she alighted at khatib and alighted at yishun (: went home (:
HAPPY 2ND MTH TO ME AND MICHELLE WIFEY <3
thanks wifey for the present (: hope yous lyk the keychains toos (: loveeeee :D



230908 (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUHAYU DARLING / LAOGONG .MAY ALL URE WITHES COME TRUE (:
sorrys for the late wishes (:


HAPPY 2ND MONTH TO ME AND GRACE LAOGONG <3loveeee :D
she;s nice . told her tht day , i wanted a perfume and she bought it for me. thanks yea . hahas
and tomo gonna be me and wifey 2nd month toos. ilovedhems :D
hahas :D

and yea. went out studying this few days.
im sorrys. to got baichi and my bro dulan over teaching me this maths idiot=x LOL.
i dun want flunk my exams yeah .
min er join in our studying todays [:

ytd (: went out studying with grace (: and michelle came over find me at ard 6+ . she follow me go cut hair (:

im sorrys. i dint noe i gave ure so much trouble . and as promise to iris , my grandma , and others who cares (: i shall cut down [:
exams are really stressing me now. hais ><
i guess , i wouldn bother much about any others things either .



092208 :D
HAPPY 7TH MTH TO ME AND MINER BAOBEHS (:

HAPPY MARRIAGE TO ME AND PRISCILLA HUBBY (: 6.25pm (:
we're married once agn (: ure love :D im always here alrites (:

guess, its tym for me to put all the unhappy things away i guess.
i couldn take dems withs me ards forever.
i should learn how to take and give though .
guess, its tym for me to put everything down and be a new person (:
seriously . cough is killing me now=xaww !



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everything seems my fault now.
yeas. everything. every single stuffs.
giving attidue was my fault ? coming home late was my fault ? doing everything lyk this was my fault lah ? having oral was also my fault ? scolding back also my fault ? every thing was my fault ?
this isn the home i wanted all along ,it isn the one im used to be anymore .
so it seems tht everyone is pushing the blame on me , and its all my fault ?
my fault for making my mum lyk this ? yeahs .
my fault . EVERYTHING WAS MY FAULT LAH CAN ?
even im sick , no one even bothers. i dun care anymore i guess?
im turning worst and worst .
towards ure , everything was my fault.
nothing i done is ever right lah .
everything was my fault now lah .
yah . my fault for everything lah ,
thanks bestie , for cheering me on . letting me noe . someone out dere is always dere for me (:
1 year 9 mths (: we're getting closer.
im gonna go bonkers any min or so .
imight go mad anytime , i might break down anytym .
seriously who would even bother to understand ,who would even bother to stand with me .
no one would i guess.
im facing everything alone now.
yet it seems , dere are more and more stuffs to get over with ,
im really tired of everything . im gonna break down sooner or later.
im getting frustrated easily this few days.
esp this few days lah .
exams are getting nearer and nearer . i cant cope with anything .
im really bound to flunk all my exams.
im really sick of everything . i just needed some tym alone i guess.


i guess , i will learn how to cherish [: hahas :D
after so much things is happening ard me (:
i will learn how to cherish things from now on (:
hmm , change new fone todays .
everyone ask me for new number alrites (: i'll give (: hahas :D



I'VE GIVE UP TOTALLY ):


yay ~
i've gotten my cpl rank :D thanks for iris and grace for supporting me all the way yeas (: hahas :D
finish-ed cca. receive msg frm baobehs tht daddy is in hostel now .

daddy , i miss yous lots lots (: i'll wait for yous to come out ders (: contact me once ure out alrites (: iloveyous :D

shall post some things bout last week though. whole week dint post ): LOL :D
120908
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOYCE (:
130809
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BAOBEHS MIN ER (: ILOVEYOUS (:

and yeas. lazy to post someother stuffs lahs (:
had fun with iris and grace after cca todays .
as usuals , with our craps and stuffs , di-siao iris :D hahas.
set a new rule for her.
if she dint see smoke jiu laugh , must hit her. only see smoke dhens can laugh :D hahas :D
had fun di-siaoing her :D hahas :D
cca was fun alrites (:
CIs asked us to voice out comments (:
all our comments was very usual , tiring but fun . LOL.
had some funny ones ,
lyk marcus kor , his was : all the activities were craps .
LOL. laughing away .
jialong's : had fun di-siaoing ppl
and forgotten who says it was boring . LOL.
super funny though :D hahas :D
almost cried in sci class todays , mr ng let us see the abortion thingy . super er xin alrites. awww
!
went off for lunch after sku with baobehs , bestie and laogong :D
craps ard :D hahas :D
went off to block .
iris went off 1st helping yi xin to buy panadold, cos she wasn feeling well .
iris went off , dhen i was lyk telling grace,
ehehs . iris dint laugh . she see smoke lehs . LOL :D
dhen called iris to tell her bout this . asking her to laugh .
dhen grace was lyk " later ppl thot she siao laugh while walking "
laughing away . hahas . chiong back with iris . changed and went off parade :D
hahas :D grace manage to skip the parade under the damn hot sun =.=
and after parade change back to pt kit , and grace changed to full u lers. so she must change agns . hahas :D
reallys had fun with iris and grace ard :D hoping they would come find me tomo :D
cos they said if they pon tution will be coming find me :D
GOH selection would be held during hollidays , and we dint had tht confidence to get in lahs.
heard a damn suprise news after cca.
tht 'person ' whom we called dog , get cpl =.= and he was haolian-ing away .
so me and grace talk alot bout him . and he heard it . we did it delibrately though :D hahas :D bad of us lahs ><><>

listened to the sweet sound @ 4:18 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008 ♥

maybe, i should have just disappear.
if im nt here , i wldn be causing so much trouble to everyone.
seriously , after having much thots.i was really hoping to disappear.
i really want to run away frm reality. i really din noe how much i could take all this.
one after another. seriously. im tired , really tired.
ure might nvr understand . ure thot im tht always strong person , yet ure din noe .
seriously , wo yao bei fan si lerrrrrrrrr !!!
could just anyone of yous understand , and think of me .
i seems to be the cause of everything, sometyms . i really i rather nt exist.
i kept blaming myself for everything . its really stupid i guess.
i cldn find any one to confine my problems to now .
even the person i needed the most isn dere anymore i guess .
everything seems to be going againest me now . hais ><

listened to the sweet sound @ 7:42 AM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ♥

long tym bo post le :D
finally found the tym to update .
shall reply tags nxt tym ><><
aww !~
smking right now=.=
e learning sux can=.=
i all dunnoe how do. fck lahs=.= i rather go sku slp-.- wahlaoooooooooo=.= LOL .
shall blog pic nxt tym . sibei lazy =.=
guess gonna go out miting grandma for lunch , dhen mit baobehs.
might be miting candyfloss , and michelle later i guess.
im super tired lahhhhhhhhhh~

listened to the sweet sound @ 7:47 PM

Friday, September 12, 2008 ♥

back to update,
promotion todays . tired lahs. i dint had tht confidence to pass.
aww !~
thanks iris and grace for pei-ing me back to get my pt kit (: thanks yeas.
and they told me if i wanted to thank them i must get my cpl (: hahas :D
was nervous lahs. thanks lots to iris and grace for their support .
dint think much when im with dems.
after my turn think alot lahs. ><
hais. ><
thanks to daniel kor for cheering me up lahs (: hahaas:D had fun talking to hims: D
hahaas.
8 more days to me and his 1st mth for being gans :D

i dun seems to be important to yous anymore. guess we're really drifting further.
im really breaking down everymin .
i nided someone to rely on . but no body seems to understand at all . ure told me ure do .
budden it dosen seems tht way .
hais ><
i found a person i could confine everything to (: daniel korkor.
he had alots of jokes to cheer me on (: thanks yea :D see i so good. count down to our 1st mth (: hahas :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

listened to the sweet sound @ 3:58 AM

Sunday, September 7, 2008 ♥

hahas :D
happy anni to me and baby in advance (:
should be tomo . but tomo dere's sku for all of us.
met up with baobehs and michelle mei .
train down bugis. crapp alot in mrt . talking bout our weird dreams =x LOL.
reached bugis, off to shop for baby's shirt . the shirt he lyk cos $50 over dollars lah=.= damn .
bought another shirt for him . was afraid he dint lyk it =xaww !~
went over his house. he was playing audi . smk and slack ard.
till 5 plus we're thinking of wad to do . went over econ buying balloons and played water bomb (:
nice lah. we're all damn wet .
lucky my hoonki wasn wet. only the box=x scare me. change and went home.
rush dems home. sorry . =x was in a damn hurry lahs .
smk and ran for bus . zzz=.= throw away my hoonki. wasted lahs >< aww !~
manage to get home at about 7.45 . lucky dint get scolded !~ heng lahs ><
sad lahs . dint took pics. hahaas (:

listened to the sweet sound @ 5:04 AM

Saturday, September 6, 2008 ♥

awww ~ im finally awake . lols.
just went over to pris blog , and saw smth .
girl , though i dosen noe the full story to it , but dun get affected to wad the guy had said .
wadever he said treat it as crap alrites. he had no rights to say yous in this manner.
anything can feel free to tell me if anyone bullys or says yous agn .

guess. im gonna go out later. is lyk finally lah =.= hahas ><
violet daddy is coming out soon (: imissher .
baobehs birthday is coming soon . and i owe her 2 pressies. ><><
080808 1st mth is on monday =.=
damn it,
momo cant come out agn . at least i manage to come out ><><
shall upload pics some other day (:

boy, as days gone by . i feel we're drifting further and further

listened to the sweet sound @ 7:40 PM

Friday, September 5, 2008 ♥

hais >< im really puzzled now lahs .
lots of things are in my mind. forget it .i sldn be thinking.

listened to the sweet sound @ 9:42 AM

♥

edited by me (:
hahas (:
lalallaa:D
im bored . audi maintenence till 1 lahs. fck lahs. whole day dint get to play audi .
i want lvl ders lehhhhhhhhhhhh~ wah lao=.= LOL.
lalalalaa:D
im bored.
zzz =.=

listened to the sweet sound @ 7:58 AM

Thursday, September 4, 2008 ♥

pic edited by baobehs (: its nice alrites (:im addicted to her toos (:
hahahas ((:
i shall find i tym to change my blogskins picture lahs .
i yue see yue nan kan =.= LOL .
hahas :D
im gonna go out and go find baby soon (:
hahas (:
and sian lah .
baobehs cant come out ><
guess , im gonna stay home tomo and go out on sundays instead. hahas (:
lalalalas: DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
im mad now lahs (:
ilovebaobehs (:
ilovewifey (:
ilove violet daddy (:
ilove evon mummy (:
ilove all my gans and friends (:
ilove my piglet (:
and yeahs .
ILOVEBABY (:

listened to the sweet sound @ 6:53 PM

♥

hoho !~
im back to post yeas (: 050908 is being loves alrites (: mandy gan darling (:
hahas (:
had been going down to adjunied finding baby lahs (: today was a good day yeas (:
at least i had the mood to update lah (:
i call baby update so i came to update toos (:
aww !~
hahas (:
080908 is coming soon ~ 3 more days (: hahas .
aww !~
wo yao bei fan si ler ahhhhhhhh~!

listened to the sweet sound @ 9:25 AM

Wednesday, September 3, 2008 ♥

happy `1st mth anni with baby (: 030808 was our actual date (: <3 size="1">
i seems to be the worst stead/girlfriend ever.
im unreasonable enough . i throw my tantrums.
i get dulan easily. i smoke alot. i scolded alot of vulgarities.
it was all my fault . i started everything .
i really din noe wads happening to me anymore.
i really getting dulan real easily .
i could just pick a quarell with ppl easily.
im sorrys.
maybe nxt tym i should just kept quiet , thts the best way i guess.




talking to huiying make me feel so much better (: hahas :D she's really funny (: i could tell her anything (:


yous'll nvr understand , how it feels .
tht type of feeling really hurt .
im trying nt to be too sensitive, im trying to control everything .
in the past , i would really throw a tantrum and just walk away. but i din .
i had been controlling myself.
isit really tht difficult ,by just wanting more of ure care and concern ?
ppl ask me to tell yous bout it , but given both of our character we confirm quarell .
i dun want it to affect anything.
i really dun noe , is either my fault for being sensitive or wadever.


fck lahs. my eyes is really swollen . fck. guess its due to crying too much ytd bahs, fck .
super irritating, fck fck fck .
im going out agn . maybe i shall be home early bahs.



thanks wifey , and bestie and baobehs (:
and everyone who cares (:
thanks wifey , for ure msges , it really warms my heart up (: i noe i could rely on yous forever (: thanks girl (: if yous nid anything , i promise i would always be dere toos (: i promise im nt gonna cry anymore. i'll keep our promises. i shall be strong (:

bestie (:
thanks :D wads yous say really cheer me up (: thanks girl :D i will try to cheer myself on toos (:
hahaaaaaaa:D
iris de mad wan oso call me to b happy liao,so i mus b happy=)
im being forced to rite this on my pm lahs (: thanks girl . it really cheer me on (:

baobehs,
though i cldn understand fully how yous feel . but i understand somehow .
im sorry . ure having enough trouble , yet im giveing you more trouble.
cheer up girl (: i promise i'll be dere :D

fake laughters , real tears .
it really hurts,
i rather yous control me everything , dhen yous letting me free.
at least i noe yous still care. somehow and somewad ,
i really couldn feel ure care for me. i just wanted more of ure care and concern for me.
isit really tht difficult.
maybe thts wad girls are, we tend to be really more sensitive , and thts wad most guy cldn understand , and infact they found it irritating.

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i turn older on every 14oct :}}currently 14 going 15 :}}
&im studying in nvss current 3e3
Audition is loveee , find me in audi
my ign , MILKTEA-x3
i love all my girlfriends and sisters <3
i love to daydream alot
i cry for little things , but i could be happy easily.
im childish and attitude at times
but , im still friendly and easy going
im seriously lazy at times :D
and , my precious ones are
MinEr , HuiLi , Iris , Grace , Michelle
they were the ones who make my day(:
and ILoveThems
my sister are forever LOVE toos ;}}
Fiona, wen zhen, huiying ,Sherry,Jiaying,Priscilla,Esther

Min er baobehs , HuiLi ahlian , Iris bestie ,Grace laogong , Michelle wifey (: <3
they never fails to brighten up my life , all this times
they had been holding on my childishness, attitude for all this while
helping me in whatever im doing , thanks gfs ;]]
they are forever Loveee by me ;]]

BGFs ,sisters , Gans to be forever
Sisters to be back ):
good results in mye (:
More cash
outing with BGFs
world peace
everyone to be happy
Zoo / escape / jurong bird park with love ones :}}
shoppingggggg spreeee
outing with sisters
pigs collection

Dao Dai - Jolin Tsai
MinEr, Baobehhs.♥
HuiLi, Ahlian.♥
Michelle, wifey.♥
Grace laogong .♥
Iris bestie :D .♥
Violet, Daddy.
Kailin, Xingan.♥
Angela.
Cindy, Jie.
Esther, sister.
Jafred.
Jinghui[=
Kathryn, DearDear.
Linyong, Dearest.
Madeline.
Ruhayu, Darling.♥
Yuxuan.
Vincent.
Jack, AhKor.
Yixin.
Joyce.
PingYing, JieJie.
HuiYing.♥
KokPin, kor.
Priscilla, Laogong.♥
MinHui, AiAi.
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