day out with frens todayyyyy :}}
woke up about 12+ receive alot of msg from baobeh .
watch tv and prepared till 2 then go out.
went northpoint meet baobeh and they all .
slack outside funland while waiting for jireh to finish his game.
then off to wilfred kor house.
slack till 7 , he went bathe and took 859 back to yishun .
reached yishun ard 8+
slack ard ,wilfred kor went to watch movie with his frens.
and off to 921 to eat hokkien mee , shared with baobeh .
then off to playground to slack .
went home ard 9.30 .
thats my dayyyyyy :}}


Good morning ppl :}}
guess everyone is at school now. LOL.
but me , baobeh and ahlian is not :}}
im still not really feeling well . almost vomited just now -.-
idiot .
chatted with baobeh on fone just now , cos she called me wake. LOL.
gonna meet her up soon :}}
then meet ahlian :D
then at 1 go meet andy kor and the rest outside school .
hahs :}}
post more when im back . hohoho :}}

fuck up family, when will it end -.-
im alr sick , what more they expect from me .
im tired of all this stuffs. givmme a break .

-edited-
homed :}}
went out , had breakfast . slack ard, went off 4oo plus look for jireh and others.
then went off slack , went to fiona laogong house.
and off to wilfred kor house.
then off to their frens house. smth happened there -.-
then home ard 8 .

im tired , how i wish
i really dont have to go home anymore.
im tired of this family, tired of everything .
idiot family i have .
when they ever can understand me.

im sad , im crying .
im forcing myself to smile.
i thought i could but i really cant.
i hate myself for crying ,
i hate myself for getting angry easily .
i hate myself for saying everything .
i hate myself for not doing anything .
im really hopeless, im really useless.



how i wish i could end everything .
i hate everything .

maybe in all of your eyes, im just as hopeless and useless as it be.


Hohoho , im happy :}}
baobeh is back in singapore :}}
hohoho .
going meet her up tomo morning i guess.
since she's not going school either.
i dont think im going school tomo also .
still abit not feeling well -.- damn it .

i hate this feeling ):


fuck up mood agains. sigh.
i want baobeh to faster come back .
i want tell her everything .
i miss her alotttt .


Hellooooooo peepos :}}
dint went school today .
okayy , i dint pon school alrites.
im having a bad headache -.- from ytd night till now -.- wtf .
going back school outside to find andykorkor and jireh later for lunch i guess.
intended to find hui li and grace .
but they're going out with their frens . lols.
how nice if baobeh was here . lols.
baobeh is coming back todayyyy .
*yay-nesss *
she msg me ytd , said she's coming back today .
she said she will msg me when she reach singapore. happy *
so yeaa, currently waiting for her msg right nowwww :}}
imissher alot <3
post when im back :}}

-edited-
homed :}}
went over 4oo plus look for andy korkor jireh they all .
pei-ed andy korkor go home change and went to broad way to eat.
jireh , fiona laogong and darren came along.
ate finish went clinic find grandma .
tio gan -.- idiot .
had slight fever and that cos my headache -.- damn it .
went funland look for andy korkor and his fren .
fiona laogong came along .
slack and chatted .
wilfred kor came.
slack till near 6 went home :}}


freaking bad day today . sighs.
went school , super dulan during recess.
after school got super dulan also .
went 418 to had lunch with ahlian .
jireh and others came along .
ate and slack , went home changed . realise parents at home .
came out slack alone , while waiting for jireh and the rest cos they went bainian .
walk ard till 325 , saw marcus ,yongming and they all there . walk back np with thems . thanks for pei-ing me :}}
bus-ed to safra , meet thems . and see them play pool .
ard 7+ had a major quarell with parents -.-
rather not talk about it .
super stupid . kept running ard.
and decided to call andy korkor .
chatted with him for awhile and walk back 4oo plus .
went home ard 9+ .
mum dint say anything -.-
guess she should be super disappointed in me now . sighs.
if baobeh is ard, she sure counsell me. hais.

fuck up life and problems i had .
im tired of all this idiotic stuffs.
i wish everything could end.
i wanted to keep my smiles and laughters on .
but realise .
i couldnt anymore.


okayy , cny 2nd dayy.
and im going back school tomo . hooray :}}
at least going back to school i can see my BGs and sisters laaa :}}
but im still not in the mood of studying >< sighs . gonna go for family lunch later at mother side , and off to father side relative's house. yeaa , so gonna post more when i come back tonight :}}

super tired , dint get to sleep till 4+ ytd night . woke up at 1o+today -.-
idiotic siall . was thinking thru things. about the past and present , but after thinking so much , im still totally confused. someone pls cousell meeeee ~ ><

-edited-
finally home. super boring there.
lost 18 dollars -.- super sway . lols .
okayy ,
went for family lunch ,
dint eat much . super no appetite to eat laa.
mum thot i was throwing tantrum -.- got super dulan -.-
went relative house.
super boring .
went out a few times alone slack , msging and calling ppl to chat with me . lols.
ard evening ,
snatch psp from cousin :}} lols.
and walk outside with cousin and chatted at staircase.
he super funny laaa.
and we were talking about our childhood stuffs . hahs.
and ard 9+ , cabbed home with bro and huiying .
stop at mrt station and walk home .
parents still at relative house -.-
okayy , i want go ppl's house bainian .
whose house can go ?????
LOL.

hahs, both cny days are over.
means going back to school tomo .
means i can meet my BGFs and sisters :}}
means i can find someone to cry my hearts out alr .


HAPPY CNY PPL :}}
okayy ,
totally not in mood for festive season .
sighs .
yeaa , whatever laa.

woke up bathe and prepared everything .
went to grandma house gather. totally no mood.
so dint talk much . msging away with baobeh , ahlian and andy kor :}}
so yeaa,
went to ard geylang , to pray my great grandma .
off to bedok to father side grandma house.
5+ , came back yishun .
off to funland , meet jireh and fiona laogong :}}
then off to s11 , to buy coffee for mum ,
went home and down again to find jireh , cos fiona laogong went home.
and yeaa,
andy kor came to find us , slack ard and came home ard 7+
hopefully i can go down to find them later :}}
baobeh went to msia for 5 days .
i miss her lots <3
without her , no one counsell me . sighs.

okayy , i manage to keep my smiles and laughter on .
hopefully i could do that till cny is over.
after cny , im gonna find someone shoulder to cry my hearts out.
who's willing to that , i guess none . sigh .


-edited-
dint went to find them just now , rot at home .
sibei bored .
decided to call wilfred kor to chat sadly he's busy .
so called ahlian .
chatted awhile .
kup and was super bored.
decided to call huiying .
and chatted with her till 11 plus :}}

yeaa. mood wasnt very good . super moody .
thanks to marcus kor , for listening to my randoms stuffs.


i feel like killing myself.
i kept thinking all those stuffs i shouldn have thot .
i should have erase them all from my mind.
but sadly, i couldnt.


fucked up life, fucked up family.
i rather end everything .


i need serious counseling , who can do that ):


i suddenly had the urge to cry . i wanted a pair of listening ears .
i wanted someone to console me.
i wanted someone to be there when im crying.
i tried holding back my tears .
i realise its harder then ever.
dont come asking me what happen .
is just more then your think.
it isnt so simple anymore.
since nobody bother.
maybe i shall keep everything to myself in future.
i shall suffer alone.


Happy new year eve ppl :}}
tomo is gonna be cny ,
but , im really not in the festive mood laa.
one year worst then one year.
thot 2oo9 could be a better year , but guess , its not gonna be baa.
sighs.
with all this idiot problems coming up .
is really not gonna be a good year.
thinking , i rather go to school then having holidays.
sighs.



baobeh came to find me just now.
chatted at playground .
awhile later , mum kp me to go up -.-
and yeaa , chatted with her about alot of stuffs.
im starting to think .
guess what she says is right .


有缘无份

i guess , sometimes thing just goes like this.
unfated ):



okayy , went to cut my hair today .
makes not much diff -.- expect for my fringe. LOL.
went out finding baobeh and ahlian 1st .
then they went to meet bunny and co .
so went off 4oo plus meet up with jireh , andy .
and izzat came along .
crapp ard, then went to cut hair.
walk to safra.
then find baobeh and ahlian :}}
then went in ktv.
since bunny they all had that room .
but somehow , something happened -.-
stupiddddd. lols .
okayy , yeaa, settled everything and high :}}
and went yishun park slack :}}
then ard 7.30 walk back , and jireh went home to get things
and we walk to northpoint .
jireh and andy went funland .
and baobeh ,ahlian and me went home :}}
super fun day though :}}
hohoho !


had school in morning ,
had 5 periods, crapping away :}}
and after recess had concert .
but personally , the concert nicest part was the basketball and wushu only.
lols.
and yeaa ,
went outside school .
and 4oo plus with jireh and others.
and went back home , change and went out to meet them again .
and waited for baobeh and ahlian till about 5 plus, bus-ed to bugis. wasnt really feeling well , due to whole day dint eat .
almost vomited .
reached bugis , went food court , ate and went shopping .
bought 1 shirt and one dress :}}
and went bk find the jireh and the others .
crapped . and bus-ed back yishun .
sat with wilfred korkor on bus :}}
its been really long since i ever talk to him for such a long time alr.
and went 9oo plus
vomited -.-
and went 925 to eat .
and home ard 10+ :}}

i hope wilfred korkor and wifey is alright , sighs.




everybody is disappointed in me now .
i've never done anything to make any body happy.
all i done was making them angry .
im stress up enough .
my parents and grandparents are disappointed in me.
my friends are disappointed in me.
all i've done was giving empty promise.
i couldn even fulfil any promise i've made to them .
im really hopeless .
for smoking matter , i hope your do understand .
is not as easy as your think ,
yes, its bad for my health , i know what im doing .
i know your do care . i appreciate it alot .
but , after one month and one month of promises ,
i doubt i can make it this time round again .
im sorryy .
all this months and days .
all those laughters and brave fronts are really fake.
i couldn continue like this anymore.
im breaking down soon .
im crying down hard right now .
and who's gonna be there for me . none .
even whenever im home.
im just stepping into a empty house.
i rather im just dead then having all this things.
im a bad sister , im a bad friend , im a bad duaghter .
i had nothing good in me .
like what jiaying ask me , what you do then sleeping and playing computers game.
seriously , even i had that determined to study . i wont be able to make it .
i really can forget about getting below 20 for o's
im a serious failure . i couldn do anything right .
even playing audi , even how much i trained , i still couldn make it .
i feel like giving up on everything.
i dint know why im like this.
i just got mood swings easily , get angry and attitude easily.
i couldn just keep all my emotions inside me anymore .
im sorryy , for all those attitudes given .

i guess , even im given forever ,
i wont be able to change . i'll be always like this.
my change just stands for a period of time .
guess now , im back to my old self again .


Hellooooooooooooooo ppls :}}
super bored now , audi cant patch -.- idiot siall . lols.

okayy , had lessons in morning and super fun after school .
waited for bestie for a long time and went off 4oo plus .
then me , ahlian , baobeh , fiona went broadway , cos we wanted to eat .
and bestie and laogong went home :}}
then jireh and andy came along :}}
so slack awhile, and huiying came .
decided to go cwp cos fiona wanted to take back her phone.
yeaa, so went home and change . out to funland to meet jireh ,andy and huiying.
and fiona cameee, and baobeh came.
bus-ed to cwp , met with ahlian :}}
crapped and went to repierce my 3rd piercing :}}
hahs .
chatted and slack at taxi stand .
and my bro and zhiyong came.
yeaa, so slack till 7 + took bus back to yishun , reached home at about 8 plus :}}
and thats my dayy ,
boredd, i dont feel like going school tomo -.-
4 periods of lessons -.-
boring laaa. lols.
tomo going shopping at bugis :}}
hahahaha :}}

ohyeaa,
cheer up bestie and jireh :}}

and yeaa, i had a new hubby .
fiona :}} 220108 :}} cheers :}}


super boring , super tired now .
since i had nth to do , i shall post :}}
hahsssss :}}
freaking stress , getting more and more no mood.
getting more and more easily angry -.-
wtf is wrong with me -.-
zzz.
dulan -.-
okayy , i dont know what im talking about now. LOL .
hahs .
okayy . shall go now . im lameee:}}


♥ MinEr: oi why my one so ugly lols. wa, you finally update yr zilian photo
LOL. cos my blog lack of pictures:}}

Grace: can't don't put my photo very ugly leh
cannot :}}

xueyan: hellos! i the wisteria de member, bunny the cpl.. if u wan go see my linkk, go fam blog find can lerhh.. the first linkk(:
hellooo :}} okayys :}}

huiying: wah lao.all complain their pic ugly. IF GOT SEE MY PIC CONFIRM CHIO ONE. NO MATTER HOW ALSO WILL ;D
LOL , yayaa , want your picture on top isit .

♥яuнαуu: WIFEYYYYYYYYY <333
Hubbyyyyyy :}} <3

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okayy :}}relink soon :}}

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ilys toos :}}

Grace: let enter GOH together : D
yesyesyes :}}

huiying: complete math hai bu shi ying wei wo -.-
yayayaya , thanksssss :}}

♥яuнαуu: Laopo ! Tagged . Loveyas ~
love youuuuu tooooos :}}

HuiLi: Ahlian :] Heh, passby. Tagged ♥ iloveyouuu ! xD
ehh , simi pass by , is everyday must come my blog :D loveyou toos :}}

♥ MinEr: neh ni pu pu =x
lameeeee bodohhhhh :}}

sherry: stupid pig, everyday sleep sleep sleep!
what stupid piggggg!

♀IRIS: BOO, BESTIE .. science pro sae..haha
booooooooo ! maths pro sehhhhhhhhhh :}}

♥яuнαуu: Boring siol ~
yeaaa, come i entertain youuuuu :}}

♥ MinEr: i dont like to tag you. cus always tag you. bo reply tags
LOl , bu shi reply le luhh . so kan chiong for what , im a busy person can . LOL
♥ MinEr: eee u guaikia kns
i guai okayyyyyy :}}

Marcus: ItchyHand Taged =\
what itchyhand , my hand not itchy :}}

sherry: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. you this stupid pig
LOL , you stupid idiot :}}

replied tags :}}
ohyeaa,
one happy thing to announce .
im in for npcc dayyyyyy :}} happy laaaaaaaaaa :}}


Hellosssssss :}}
im back home :}}
post post post :}}
is wed today , went out meet ahlian and jialong .
took 8o6 , reached school .
forgot much of happenings in school .
super bored jiu shi alr.
after school .
saw wifey :}
its been long since i chatted with her.
and went off had lunch with jireh , andy , ahlian and issac ( hopefully spell correct )and fiona .
hahs .
then crap ard , baobeh had cca so couldn join us , bestie and laogong went home .
so ahlian pei me :}} thanks , hahs :}}
yeaa , so took 8o4 with ahlian , issac ,andy and fiona :}}
then went northpoint ,
fiona went home, went kfc with andy and issac since they wanted to eat .
slack ard, crapped about school stuffs .
and they went amk , me and ahlian went home :}}
and now im home:}}
thats my day :}}


okayy , pictures up :}} enjoyy .



she's acting tall laa , even though she's taller then me :}}



retarted herrrr :}}
she's too shy to see ppl :}}
one fine day after school "}}





guai kiaaaa :}}

okayy okayy , done .
super lazy to update though , but update anw , since nth better to do .

nothing much happen in school though .
nothing much interesting .
after school , had lunch and homed.
school starting late tomo .
breakfast with ahlian :}}

thats it for now . im seriously not in the mood though .
hopefully tomo is a better day for me.
hopefully BGFs will be able to cheer me up . with craps and jokes :}}

sighs ):


BGFs <3
baobehs , ahlian , bestie , laogong & wifey <3
hahs . :DDDDDD


im back to my old self i guesss ,
i couldn change after all . sighs.


hellooooooooooooooo !
is a half day for school today .
ended at 11.
sadded, tomo school ending at 2 again -.-
oh yeaa ,
super sway day for me cans.
1. get to know smth during P.E , super sway -.-
2. conflicts between sisters and me .
3. leg super pain -.-
4. kena bird shit on my leg .

idiot , im super sway today. wthswthswths .
-.-
yeaa , hope tomo gonna be a better day for me though .

shall talk about my day ,
had lessons , super crappy with sherry idiot , jiaying , esther and ruhayu .
hahs . ended school .
crapped outside class . and went off to find mr tan .
he say he might not choose me for npcc day . damn ><
hopefully i can get in . sadded ):
yeaa, ended school , had our daily routine.
sorryy GFs , for my attitiue and stuffs . esp bestie .
im sorryy .
yeas, went of to food court .
ate and mood wasnt still good.
sorry ahlian ><
went slack and 2 plus baobeh went home . .
went library to slack , since no place to go .
and studied . surprsingly right. LOL.
and all went home , i went home too .
went home , did my maths homework .
and came out ard 6 to meet up with baobeh .
went slacking ard , and pei her go longjohn eat :}}
met up with affinity , mroink and their friend i think .
crapped ard , went home .

_GFs_
im sorryy , i dint know whats gotten into my today.
sorryy for holding up all my attitude.
im really stress up , i really dint know what happen.
sometimes i was hoping to cover everything with craps and laughters .
but i realise i couldnt .
sometimes i feel like shouting everything out loud .
everything seems to be coming so fast .
i really dint know what to do anymore.
i cant control all my emotions anymore.
im sorryy , if this few days im giving attitude or whatever .
pls bare with me .
i'll try my best to keep my emotions well :}}
i love your always <3

im stressing up , sighs .
i dint like the feeling of ppl keeping things from me.
i dint know why i get so irritated. ><
okayy , shadn talk about unhappy things anymore.

im looking forward to thurs and friday .
cos whyy ,
cos im gonna pierce my ear with grace laogong .
and baobeh and ahlian coming toos :}}
hopefully bestie comes along :}}
and friday is a shopping day with GFs .
hopefully all can make it :}}
esp bestie and laogong :}}
ohyeaaa,
MICHELLE WIFEY , IF YOU READ MY BLOG ,
I WANT YOU COME ALONG ALSO ON FRIDAY .
go bugis :}} msg me if you can make it . hopefully all cannnnn :}}
hahs.

and yess ,
for angry parts .

to J_______
tmd laa .
you dont look down on ppl can . wths .
dont think everybody like you and you can make use of everyone .
dont look so great about yourself.
your just a bitch towards us .
and yeaaa , stop thinking that 'E-V-E-R-Y-B-O-D-Y' likes you okayy .
stop being so bhb about yourself.
your just throwing everyone face .
and stop honging laaaaaa , bloody hongster .


okayy , done .
its been long since i scolded someone like this. hahs .
anyone want know im talking about who . ask me personally :}}
if i decided not to tell , dont force me to tell . cos i wont :}}
GFs should know who im talking about . hahs .
its our main topic during daily routine .
which got me really dulan also .
okayy .
byeeeeeeeeeeeeee ppl :}}


Hellooooooooooooooooooooo !~
school was rather fine todays . forgotten much about what happened in school though .
had cca after school ,
thot there will be goh reselection , but ended up we played games .
super high cans .
had sing a long after thats , and had lecture .
i want to go for npcc day ._.
okayy , im super tired now.
shall post someothers day ,
byeeeeeeeeeee :}}


hellooooooooooooo !
idiotic , is thurs todayy . means tomo is friday .
i must prepare my stuffs soon yeaa.
hohoho ,
everybody shock , cos i complete my maths homwork , im guai alrite :}}
hahs, school was fineeee .
shall not elaborate much :}}

everything is fineee nowwwwwww ;}}


hellooooooooooooooo peepo's , its wed todayyyyyy ~
hohoho ,
wed = go school late ;}}
woke at 7.30 , met ahlian ard 8 , had breakfast at mac.
and went off to school ,almost late .
had geo , msging and talking all the way .
chem was niceeee ;}}
recess , and had F&N , study for 1 period and teacher went off, slept thru out though .
had maths , couldn understand what teacher was teaching .
after school , went home change and went food court look for iris , huili and grace ;}}
had lunch with thems and chatted .
went home ard 4 to 5+ .
ask huiying about maths and she taught me till 7.
and
seriously , i've alr put my mind and thinking to study hard alr .
next year is o's alr, if i dont study hard this year, till next year is really too late though .
hahs, as what i promise Iris and Grace is that , im training hard to get into GOH also :}}
yeaaa, so im gonna study and work hardd ;}}
tadaaaaaa ~
byeeeeeeeee peepo's ;}}


Helloooooooooooooooo peepos :}}
yeaa , went school early todays . took 1 round of 8o6 ,
manage to finish my lit work on bus ;}}
super stupidddd , no lit book , stand for 1 and half period , leg pain somemore.
but , its okayy laa. not as if never stand before yeaa :}}
hahaas !
and yeaa , had lessons .
love chem alot , mdm Tay super funny cans . :}}
yeaa , cant rmb whats happen in school though .
the only thing i know was.
sherry that idiot ps me in school todayy ><
hahas !
she never come = nobody entertain me )):
sadded siall . Lols .
i dont care, must come tomo ahhhh ;}}

hahass , after school , slack with ahlian and gracelaogong .
bought bbt and gracelaogong went home. ;}}
went to look for michelle wifey and her mother .
had lunch with thems .
bus-ed 8o4 to northpoint with ahlian ,
slack ard northpoint went home about 5plus :}}


Hellooooooooooooooooos !
okayy , im here to update, no picture .
cos im frigging lazy =\
okayy , shall talk about todays .
had physics and chem, nxt was pe .
and had recess , after recess was lit .
and after that was chinese.
damn , had to climb up 4th story to take chinese the future. damn sian lahh.
sat with marcus kor in chinese class , was actually planning to sit with sherry deee.
ended up teacher dont let, so change place to sit with marcus kor ;]]
chatted awhile with him and bell rang .
wasted my time and energy . lols .
went back class, had relieve teacher , cos mdn lau went for the o lvls result thingyy .
slack and chatted with sherry and marcus kor ;]]
ended school ,
smths happen , dint wanted to talk about it .
and yeaa,
sorryy to hui li , grace , iris, michelle , andy and jireh .
for holding up my damn idiot attidue though .
and yeaa , thanks for trying to make me laugh ;]]
its appreciated though . ;]]
slack at broardway coffee shop and ate there .
michelle mum came over , and chatted alot.
jireh and andy went home and came over looking for us again .
chatted till 5+
took bus went home ;]]
saw haoming on bus ;]]
tadas , thats my dayyyy .









hohoho , updated pictures ;]]
some retarted photos taken on friday , while slacking with ahlian ;]]
shall talk about this few days ;]]
stayed at home whole of today , guai ehh ;]]

yesterday ;]]
slept at 2 the night previous , woke at 6, damn tired.
met up with grace laogong at 2oo plus mac, and jialong sister came ;]]
had breakfast at mac, and went over busstop to meet iris bestie ;]]
reached school at 7+ , went to change .
help out with giving out of brouchers, and watch the performance. kinda slack .
went block slack with iris and grace ;]]
went home ard 1+ , went off to slp .
till 4 plus , grace call me . intented to go downstairs to find them .
ended up parents came home -.-
and dint let me go down -.-
sorryy ahh .
they waited for me for damn long ,sorryy .
went back to slp till 7 , had dinner. ;]]

friday ;]]
couldn rmb what happen though , had lessons in morning ;]]
dint went for cca, so slack ard ,
went block slack with ahlian ,
took pictures ;]]

okayy , im going off now .
gonna chiong my homework ><
tomo need pass up .
tadas readers ;]]


bored :D
msging with marcus kor right now (:
fone kept hanging -.- damn it ,
talk to him in sku today , complained to him why he so long dint talk to me.
LOL.
and yeaa ,
had sku , met up with ahlian , went sku .
reached sku went up hall .
and was drinking water while puting down bag, and the water spill out ><
and make until one teacher shirt and skirt , but somehow she dosent seems to realize anything , me and jiaying kept laughing :X
bad of us :X
had lessons , fell aslp during english .
jie wei change sit , and sat beside me ><
he super crappy, but not much mood to entertain him .
and yeaaa, sku ends at 2 , while na students end at 1.3o ,
biased lahhhhhh ><
LOL .
still thinking if im gonna go for cca tomo :X
im gonna do up my combo soon .
gonna go audi toos :D
hoho , tadas :D


hohoho ~
its wed today . woke at 7+ ,
bathe and prepared ,
jialong sister was waiting for me at my house downstairs for 10mins , ps ahs ><
LOL .
went mac had breakfast with him .
waited for hui li ,
late todays .
lucky dint get detention D:
went back class, had geo .
and finished lesson and had chem ,
had recess nxt ,
gather with girlfriends :D
hadn had the mood after thts.
had home econs. slept during class,
since teacher dint came in , and had maths.
listen to teacher, but dint understand a single thing -.-
release school , and went to gather with girlfriends agn .
went bbt and went northpoint foodcourt with
ahlian and baobehs,
vincent and jialong came over.
ate and vincent went home .
went slack with the rest ,
huiying baichi came over,
super funny ,:D
went back home with huiying baichi . chatted with her alot of stuffs (:
practically thts my day though :D

im learning to let go, im learning to be strong.


Love no more ):

im back to square one , im learning to let go and put down everything.
im tired , really tired.
i cant seems to noe wads wrong with me .
why everything has to be turning out this way ,
hope you find a better girl for ureself (:
guess, this will be my last time calling you dear .
there wont be any other chance back i gues .


Girls' language ~~ :D
-
When i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When i walk away from you mad
[ Follow me ]

When i stare in your eyes
[ Kiss me ]

When i push you or hit you
[ Hug me and dont let go ]

When i start curssing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me]

When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong/Or mess with me. ]

When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]

When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst
[ Tease me ]

When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist frombehind ]

When im scared
[ Protect me ]

When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]

When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When i say that i like you
[ I really do more than you couldunderstand ]

When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]

When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]

When i miss you
[ im yearning to see you asap ]

When you break my heart
[the pain never really goes away ]

When i say its over
[ i still want you to be mine ]

When i post this
[ i want you to read it ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her
- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you:
- Called her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Called her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treated her like she's all that matters to you.
- Teased her and let her tease you back.
- Stayed up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watched her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass should I kick babe?"

saw this frm baobehs blog, found it meaningful and post it (:
and yea,
was talking with jia long on fone just now. super lame and crappy lah him .
LOL. he super funny though (:
yeaa .
the thing i nvr regret coming to this sku ,
is noeing all my girlfriends.
if it wasnt for them , my life would be so boring now.
they were always the 1st one to be dere for me,
they were the once who understand me the most
they were the once who truly cares for me.
and yesss :D ilovethem tons lots (:

ps : jialong is my sister also (:
guess, he'll be mad after reading this . wahahahah :D
im super zibi right now :D
my mood is on the right track :D
cos im thinking about all my girlfriends :D
baobehs , ahlian , bestie , grace laogong , wifey , pris laogong , sherry .
and alot more lahhhhh ~ im lazy to name all out (:


hohoho !
sorry for emo post (:
im fine now :D

almost couldnt wake for sku today , super sleepy ><
father had to call me for dunno how many times till i wake.
woke up , bathe and prepare stuffs.
went out ,
met up with ahlian , help her spray her hair and took 8o6 to sku .
reach sku , chatted with baobehs , and assembly at carpark .
chatted with sherry (:
went back class , 1st lesson was lit .
listen for awhile , and slept , while doing work , super tired. ><
had maths , and slept toos. couldn really wake.
had chinese ,
sherry kept giving me sweets to keep me awake :D thanks ehs :D
and wrote compo . LOL.
had recess, bought file for chem .
and went off to find iris , grace , min er and hui li :D
ate and went to assemble.
stupid , recess damn fast finish -.-
then had chem , slept abit , manage to keep myself awake for awhile .
had geo ,
went to 3e2 . sadded , bestie was in nxt class for geo ><
teacher dint come , so slept for 2 periods .
and when ending lesson ,l zhi xiang woke me up :D
went to 3a2 to look for grace , hui li and min er ,
went off , had our daily routine :D
chatted alot :D
then went bbt , baobehs went home 1st .
went bbt , and bus-ed 8o4 with thems .
crapped alot in bus also .
and went northpoint with ahlian :D
went home to put down things, and went food court for lunch .
walk ard, and waited for amanda mei's frens to come .
help me bought smth , and they went off, thanks :D
saw sherry and pris laogong :D <3
nice of sherry lahs , she helped me photocopy notes for chem test , cos i still dint have my text book :D
thanks girl :D
hahaa , walk off , ard with ahlian , laugh and crap alot .
went off to my house dere, slack for awhile and send her to busstop and went home :D
ahlian , kept talking about mao >< make me damn irritated :D
but , is nice to see her laugh rather then seeing her sad.
so i rather you got me irritated , cos i could see you smile :D
hahaha :D

and yesss, im home now :D
suddenly i realise , my blog is super lacking of pics lahs. shall upload some pics . :D
soonnnnnn ~
LOL.

hoho ! tomo's wed. starting sku late,
gonna go breakfast with ahlian and jialong maybe :D
and maybe gonna mit up with dear , lyk finally -.- LOL . :D

guess, im being oversensitive ><


i hate myself .
i hate myself , for being so weak .
for crying for small little stuffs,
for being over sensitive.
i hate myself, for puting all my efforts in .
yet i gain nth ,
i hate myself ,
for nt being strong .
i hate myself ,
for all the things i done .

my hearts hurt terribly ,
i dint noe why im lyk this.
im just weak ,weaker then ever.
when will i learn how to be strong .


yes, everybody have their own problems i had mine too .


maybe i should keep everything myself in the future .
i will nt tell anyone about my problems to anyone anymore.
seriously , no body bother to listen at all .
why should i trouble ppl when they alr had their own problems alr.
yea, everything was my fault.
i started everything .
im immature , im childish .
im hopless.
just ignore me .

you just dun understand , those feelings ,
of insecure-ness ,
i just want some secure-ness ,
is it tht so diff.


im fine :D

but , those memories , those feeling are still haunting me ):
i dun want history to repeats all over agn . im really afraid ):


HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNI WITH IRIS BESTIE <3

hahs, should be a happy day for me .
but i guess,

i hate myself ,
for being so sensitive ,
for crying for silly stuffs ,
for puting everything inside .
for trying my best to trust things agn ,
for breaking down so easily .
i couldn be lyk any other gals,
im a failure in everything i do .
im sensitive when it comes to this kind of things.
yes, wadever you want now .
i shouldn have even trust anything .


} MICHELLE :B
HUBBBBBBBBBBBBBY ~ I TAGGED , iloveyou laaaaaaa <3
hohoho , iloveyouuuu toooooooo :D

} MICHELLE :B
somethinq make me super honoured , thanks to you !
yah luh yah luhs :D must be happy ahs :D ure stead bully you tell me :D

♀IRIS
erm, nice profile pic bestie.. school goin reopen soon, goin c u soon:D
tyty :D im alr seeing you in skuuuu :D

triplets
dun say tis abt ur parents mahs. they r jus being concerned.
LOL =x i noe lahs , ehs, so far , i still dunnoe one thing .
who are you ? lols.

Crystal's PAPA
You stead with who siah? Who yer dear? LOLOL
you ahkel ahs ? lols. ahkel put ahkel lahs :X

Huili
Ahliannnn ~ Hahh, tagged (: and you 'twilight' LOL. And last long alright <3 ;D
hahahs :D ilys :D simi 'twilight ' zibi say zibi :D im nt as zibi as you :D <3

} MICHELLE :B
Hubby ! lastlonqqqqqq ahs ! loveyous bodoh ! takecareeees yea ;D !
wifey ! ilys too :DDDDD

tags replys: D only some :X im lazy to reply so much ><


homed :D
went to dentist today .
wanted to ask baobehs to find me . but , she couldn come out so nvm .
msg amanda mei (: ask her smth ,
was audi-ing with baobehs and munkie , ubp .
dear call me say he wanted to find me at yishun .
jitao shock .
he came anw.
ubp half way , he called asking whr i was.
told him i was still at home.
and he walk to my house downstairs to look for me.
shock tht he could find his ways to my house also .
went down mit him ,
called amanda mei agn . she came over find me .
with her frens ,
slack with dear and zk at playgrd , and went up block , sit down . chatted.
lols , went over northpoint library , sit down dere and walk ard.
slack awhile , and wanted to find amanda mei at mac, they dint wanted to go .
walk away , im sorry :X
went back mrt station to find thems ,
they told me they wanted to go back hougang .
was abit disappointed though .
pei-ed them waited for bus and went off to grandma house.
cousin came, and pass me new moon and breaking dawn books.
was suppose to be happy , but idks wad feeling was bugging me .
read new moon book , nice lahs "D im still half way thru :D
the book super thick though -.-
guess, it will take me sometime to read finish ><
parents came and had dinner .
walk to kitchen and felt giddy ,
dint had appetite to eat , so dint eat much ,
went home alone , parents wanted to buy things.
and now im home :D

those stupid weird feelings are still bugging me.
im feeling insecure one agns .
guess, i still couldn keep those memories behind me .
im losing every confidence i had agn . sighs.


school starts todays .
bored ~
woke up at 5.45 , and ahlian called me , she told me a bad news ,
went off to bathe and everything .
went to mit ahlian at mrt station after thts .
bus-ed to sku . chatted alot .
sadded to hear alot of things.
reached sku , saw alot of ppl .
and went to find my class, saw sherry and jiaying (: miss them lots :D
went in classroom , same as last year ><
form teacher was mdn lau , nice teacher though .
finish sku early todays ,
went to 4 tou with baobehs , bestie , laogong , wifey and ahlian .
and bus-ed back tgt.
me and ahlian bus-ed down to hougang .
met up with dear and his frens .
and went home ard 6+ .

ahlian , cheer up (: no matter wad, im here to help you , console you .
thts wad sisters are for .
i understand fully how you felt , i've been thru it before .
anything , just call me up , i noe is hard , to tell you not to be sad,
try looking everything on the bright side though .
its better thts way , dun ever do silly things over it .
you always had ure sisters with you <3


guess, 2oo9 would be another bad year for me .
i could nvr bring myself to be happy afterall .

-edited-
secondary 3 life isnt easy either, im getting more stress ,
with all this things liddat ard me , i couldn even cope .
i couldn even do my homework now . -.-
after 2 months of playing and having fun ,
my brain rot alr, i cant even think of anything.
damn , i nid to wake early tomo .
i dun even feel lyk slping tonight -.-


im really not in the mood): sighs.

slept at 5 last night , super tired today .
woke up by dear's call , at ard 8 ,
and slept back , till 9, he call agn .
he ask me to call him at 10.30 .
woke at 10.30 by grandma call . went to bathe and prepare.
11 went over to her house ,
called dear 2 times , dint ans .
decided to let him sleep .
dyed my hair back .
super ugly now ):
but , is alrite . im gonna get use to it soon .
waited for my parents , and went over to china town .
had lunch at the dunno stupid wad restaurant .
nth seems nice, dint eat much . super full though .
walk ard chinatown .
train down to hougang , met up with dear and his frens.
and baobehs came . and went home at 7 .
took bus to yck , slack ard dere.
train back to yishun .

i dint noe why , i just feel our distance seems so great .
i hadn had this weird feeling for a damn long time .
i really dun have the mood now.
seriously , idks wads wrong.

sku starting tomo , im nt prepare for anything -.-
i dun feel lyk going back to sku either.
how i wish holiday last longer.

Cheryl Tay♥
Friendster &EMAIL
i turn older on every 14oct :}}currently 14 going 15 :}}
&im studying in nvss current 3e3
Audition is loveee , find me in audi
my ign , MILKTEA-x3
i love all my girlfriends and sisters <3
i love to daydream alot
i cry for little things , but i could be happy easily.
im childish and attitude at times
but , im still friendly and easy going
im seriously lazy at times :D
and , my precious ones are
MinEr , HuiLi , Iris , Grace , Michelle
they were the ones who make my day(:
and ILoveThems
my sister are forever LOVE toos ;}}
Fiona, wen zhen, huiying ,Sherry,Jiaying,Priscilla,Esther

Min er baobehs , HuiLi ahlian , Iris bestie ,Grace laogong , Michelle wifey (: <3
they never fails to brighten up my life , all this times
they had been holding on my childishness, attitude for all this while
helping me in whatever im doing , thanks gfs ;]]
they are forever Loveee by me ;]]

BGFs ,sisters , Gans to be forever
Sisters to be back ):
good results in mye (:
More cash
outing with BGFs
world peace
everyone to be happy
Zoo / escape / jurong bird park with love ones :}}
shoppingggggg spreeee
outing with sisters
pigs collection

Dao Dai - Jolin Tsai
MinEr, Baobehhs.♥
HuiLi, Ahlian.♥
Michelle, wifey.♥
Grace laogong .♥
Iris bestie :D .♥
Violet, Daddy.
Kailin, Xingan.♥
Angela.
Cindy, Jie.
Esther, sister.
Jafred.
Jinghui[=
Kathryn, DearDear.
Linyong, Dearest.
Madeline.
Ruhayu, Darling.♥
Yuxuan.
Vincent.
Jack, AhKor.
Yixin.
Joyce.
PingYing, JieJie.
HuiYing.♥
KokPin, kor.
Priscilla, Laogong.♥
MinHui, AiAi.
Jessica

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